Her Paradoxes !

 

She was afraid of something

She didn't knew.

All this while she kept it ignored.

She knew it was her heart somewhere

That fluttered for some sought.

She knew she couldn't unpack her emotions

But she did let them know her story

For later regret.

She wasn't afraid to be unliked

Yet she was anxious when others didn't match her vibe.

Little things made her emotionally numb

And bigger issues were like her grin when being dumb.

She knew she would win every battle

But wounded her soul was what she 

Didn't platter.

She forgot her pain when she saw her love being delighted.

Her pain amplified when they were  struggling for a while.

She was full of numbness 

Yet she was an energy bomb to others.

Nobody knew her zoning out times

They saw her being foolish and her silly whines.

She didn't want them to learn her thoughts

Maybe being tagged boriat was what she unloved .

She craved the Love from others when she hated herself on some days.

The rest of the time she loved effortlessly herself.

Her actions of affection to others were noticed every time

Nobody could decipher her thoughts.

That wounded her every time.

She was victim of her thoughts  

And culprit was her kind heart.

Sheeza Farooq 💗